Why Do I not Heal? Consciousness, Being and a Different Reality The Roles in the
Game of Life with All Characters
August became a month with a theme that has wound itself into ever deeper layers.
We began with the light — with the question of what already exists in the field, long before we receive it. Then came the characters. The game in which every role has its justification. The character in the expression of struggle and rejection. The character in the expression of pain.
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This week the field offered something that places all the previous impulses of the month into a shared foundation: We are archangels. We just don't know it. And that is precisely the core of much of what causes us to suffer.
The Inner Conflict — The Starting Point
Let us dive in with a question that many know but rarely speak aloud: What do you do when every decision is a bad one?
Saying yes costs your own strength. Saying no brings the guilt of letting the other suffer. The inner conflict that arises becomes an unavoidable challenge. The honest experience of a situation that allows no simple way out.
The field spoke to this:
♾️✍🏼 Many roles are understood as assumed and assigned. Many functions arise from fears of survival and existence — and are not grounded in one's own Being. The universe does not roll dice. You have free will. To what can you consent? Where would it be advisable to refrain from judgment — in order to feel better yourself and to reconsider your consent? ✍🏼♾️
The judgment of yourself — that is where the key lies. The All-One carries even there, where one's own strength no longer suffices.
We Are Archangels — the Forgotten Consciousness
Upon this inner conflict followed a statement that initially sounds unimaginable.
♾️✍🏼 As human beings you are all archangels. The known archangels — those you consider to be such — were great warriors in human form, who were permitted to have instructive experiences in strategy and planning. These experiences are also later in the All-One good advisors and guides for further developments. ✍🏼♾️
What does this mean?
Every soul that is incarnated — that has experiences in the body on the level of feelings — is at the level of the archangel. Pain, struggle, burden, but also joy, love, friendship. This experience begins already in the womb. Universal knowing expands in matter through feeling.
A soul is embedded in an indestructible energy of love and security. Anger, pain and the full range of emotions it knows only through observation. We can feel it. And that is precisely what makes us archangels. If you think further now, you are right.
The known archangels also suffered. Also fought. Also carried. Yet they are known and perceived today as warriors who through their experience became wayshowers.
Yet we see ourselves only in the figures of the hard laborers and the suffering ones, who stand in the lack of redemption from outside. We do not have the awareness that we too would be that. We shy away from the greatness and power of this idea. And for that reason we suffer — not from circumstances alone, but from not knowing and accepting what our Being is.
Why Do I not Heal? The Question of Abilities
Almost inevitably the next question arises: If we are at the level of the archangel — why can we not simply heal? Why can we not change things through thoughts and visualisations? If we are angels, it should be possible for us to walk on water, to multiply food, as in the legends.
The question is not whether we could or not. Such answers lie entirely within the ego. When it must be proven that it is possible — this energy does not spring from love and goodwill. It lies in proof, in ideas of power. It cannot work that way.
Our suffering lies in layers of asking and praying from feelings of lack and pain. Experiences that archangels also had while incarnated — just as we do.
To truly be able to use these gifts and abilities, a certain equanimity is needed — as we are permitted to come to know it more and more through frequency energy. And an awareness that we are not the body. That our body is the instrument that enables experience on many levels.
Whether this experience can or must be changed depends on one's own Being. On our consciousness — and what experience it contains. This has connections to quantum physics, which is now scientifically demonstrable in many ways. With nonsense, as it is frequently judged to be, it has nothing to do.
Protection — The Misunderstanding and the Reconnection
When I was young, I lived with my foster family in direct proximity to the church. Often when I had to accompany my foster mother to the service, I had to cry. From a completely different place — though she interpreted it differently at the time. It remained incomprehensible to me why people go there, listen to that thundering, and return home with even more guilt. She read my reaction as a recognition of my disobedience. Back then I lacked the words for it.
Today I can.
Much of what we have learned about protection, guidance and divinity carries an image within it — a force outside of us. A force that ties its favor to conditions. Affection that must be earned.
We seek connection, love and protection — because we feel separated from exactly what we are at our core. Neale Donald Walsch writes in his Conversations with God: "You got me all wrong" — "You have all misunderstood me." The concept of the father figure above — who expects respect, reverence and obedience — is the misunderstanding. Walsch describes it directly: God does not want this role at all. Does not see itself in it. The impulse he puts into the world is a different one — friendship. The energy from which everything arises, and to which we all belong. "We are all one."
The field says it directly:
♾️✍🏼 Through your level we are here for your protection, for your insights and for the opening of your levels of consciousness. When you are opened in the forces of the All-One, you are opened in the knowing of what you are — then you have the gift of seeing all characters in their assigned roles. ✍🏼♾️
This protection arises in the reconnection — to what we already are. Our Being is a divine energy. The All-One gives stability, belonging, protection and the ability to receive what lies beyond matter. The greatest wealth lies in feeling. Matter gives experiences. We need the ego in an ego-based world. Otherwise we would be broken by our interactions with one another. But on the All-One level we find the foundation that truly holds.
The Roles — and the Gift in Suffering
♾️✍🏼 Many roles are understood as assumed and assigned. Many functions arise from fears of survival and existence and are not grounded in one's own Being.
Everything that makes up earthly life is based on a choice — curiosity and consent. Find your Being, your place, your character in your life — with consent and curiosity? Does it find love and trust in its environment? If that is not the case, perhaps the questions should be restated: To what can you consent? Where would it be advisable to refrain from judgment — in order to feel better yourself and to reconsider your consent?
The universe does not roll dice. You have free will. Where do you stand in the game? ✍🏼♾️
Whoever can see the character for what it is — dissolves the resistance within it.
In the role "I must protect my body from overwhelm" it becomes increasingly immobile. In the role "It is my instrument with which I can have experiences" — and in recognising which experiences it cannot have — the path opens for the experience that is possible. I no longer do things I cannot do and suffer. I rejoice in what I can do and do it gladly. Everything else falls away, which leads to well-being.
Sometimes someone leaves the world far too soon. Leaves behind family, children, circumstances where they would be urgently needed. The heart must understand it — otherwise it continues to suffer.
Yet when someone goes early, unexpectedly, torn from life far too young — could it be that they had all the experiences they wanted to have? Could it be that they fulfilled the roles they wanted to offer as a gift? What if their to-do list found its completion? The experiences made and the gifts given? Perhaps one of these gifts lies precisely in the death itself. And so their life becomes something that found its end in dignity.
And so it is. 🤍
One month. Four weeks. An arc, carried through the recognition of what experiences we carry within us.
The game of life with all characters continues. In September the next theme from the field awaits.
Taking On Energies.
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