Two Steps Forward, Three Steps Back

The Fight in the Vortex of the Universal Flow

From my experience I can say that often there are more steps back than forward. The pain goes away and comes back. The symptom improves and returns. Situations and relationships improve and then something brings them back to stagnating.

You give everything. You work hard at it. And still something keeps spinning back. A never-ending fight that you may well be calling letting go.

The field explains it in the direction you're facing. You're fighting against the direction of the vortex. You make a few steps out and flow back in. The universal, concentric movement of the All-One pulls you in the universal direction and you hold on again as soon as you manage to. The pull of the vortex becomes the foundation of your resistance. Yet in the field there is only one single way.

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♾️✍🏼 Now you can perhaps compare it with the image of a vortex in water. The more it pulls you toward the center, the more intense your feeling of being pulled downward, and the faster the vortex spins. Every movement, every position you take in this vortex, is to be seen as a different frequency.

Look: when you find yourself in such a vortex, the starting point is usually an immeasurably great drive. For some reason you need to get to the other side of the river, and you overcome all feelings from fear to courage and finally to love. Without love you wouldn't do it; you know it could cost you your life on earth, yet you dare it anyway and summon the courage. Already here you move emotionally through all frequency fields, and in moving through the vortex you experience it once more. The expansion of the imagination leads into the venture; the contraction is then the experience.

That's also how it feels when you enter frequency layers that are connected for you with emotional charge — injustice, dishonesty, anger, grief, disappointment. They feel like a vortex you can't get out of when you fight against it. Only when you follow this emotion, live through it, and let yourself be pulled to the bottom can you step out of the emotion. Only then does it release you. You dive through, to the ground, and there you come free.

Once you're aware of this image, you're able to dive through the vortex faster and faster. You no longer resist and you no longer reach for help first. You turn headfirst into the current and let yourself glide through. ✍🏼♾️

Why We Go Two Steps Forward and Three Steps Back

Every position in the vortex is a different frequency. Fear, courage, love are resonance fields with emotional charge that we react to. If you move through them, from one to the next, you stay in the flow. The vortex is the way through the spectrum. The drive that carries a person through a vortex is love. The field makes that explicit here. Love as the frequency that makes the gliding through possible.

What I've learned in my work: resistance is rarely stubbornness. It's mostly protection. The system fights because it has learned that giving in is dangerous. That whoever lets go, loses. That whoever follows, disappears. This belief sits deeper than any conscious thought. It sits in the nervous system, in the body, in patterns that formed long before the first conscious memory. It's not the situation itself that keeps the vortex spinning. It's what we believe will happen when we stop fighting.

I've spent a long time thinking about why the field names love as the carrying frequency. Why isn't courage alone enough, or will, or mere understanding? I think it comes down to this: every other energy creates friction. Courage fights against something. Will forces its way through. Understanding observes from a distance. Only love moves through a field without creating counter-pressure. It's the only frequency that entrusts itself to the vortex rather than fighting it.

You know, in a biography of Siegfried and Roy, the magicians with the white tigers, I once read: "And because that got too boring for us, we swam against the current." That sentence says a lot to me. And when we look at the careers of the two of them, that may have been crowned with success for a certain period of time. But would a sentence like that be in a biography if it had been recognized as the right direction?

In my sessions I experience this again and again. The moment when someone stops fighting and starts following is the moment when movement arises. The circumstances stay the same too, yet the person becomes more at ease. What shifts is the connection to what had been holding them there.

The Universal, Concentric Movement of the All-One

When I read these words, I feel their vastness. The vortex isn't about my personal situation. It's about a movement that runs through everything. When we brace ourselves against it, we're bracing against a force infinitely greater than ourselves. That's why it exhausts us so, why it keeps us going two steps forward and three steps back again and again. At the same time, here lies the basis for the solution. When we entrust ourselves to this movement, follow it, and allow it to carry us, it feels like arriving. Whoever has experienced that once knows it loses the feeling of having given up and having failed.

The Guided Journey — Taking On Energies

 In some situations, choice back then was a luxury you didn't have. You carried what needed to be carried. You responded the way you respond in that moment. That was right back then; it was what was possible.

But the resonance field of that experience carries on. It's stored in you as a connection, a charge, a way of perceiving and carrying a certain kind of situation. Years later, in different circumstances, with different people, the same reaction fires. As if you'd never had another choice.

In trance, that choice exists.

 That's why I started a series of guided visualizations with the turtle.

It accompanies you through your inner system and leads you to the place where these charges sit. You recognize them. And then you choose — perhaps for the first time in this context — what quality you wish for instead. The turtle has the ability to carry out your choice.

What shifts in this process is deeper than a decision. It's a shift in the roots from which your reactions grow. The old charge loses its connection. What takes its place, you have chosen. It belongs to you.

The Turtle Series holds three journeys so far. Dive to the Pearl  of your connectedness — the discovery of your own being. Encounter in The Game with All Characters  the All-One consciousness and what vibrates between you and everything else. And dive in Taking On Energies to where emotional charge sits and its shift becomes possible.

Every month a new guided journey appears on the Sunday in the middle of the month. All three can be found in the playlist The Turtle Series.

The new guided journey is available on YouTube. Should YouTube run ads — I unfortunately have no control over that — you'll find an ad-free version available free of charge for two months on my website. After that it will be available for purchase.

Next Week

 The channeling continues. Next week we look at what happens when the vortex consists of something beautiful, and why holding on to what is good is just as exhausting as fighting against what is difficult. It's about stagnation in the healing process, and about what the field offers instead.

A colorful week filled with good energy.